It's Okay to Not Be Okay

Hello lovlies. If you read my previous post or know me closely, you know that I struggle with major depression and anxiety. It's not an easy thing to deal with all the time and it can be rough. Some recent events have taken place that I have to deal with emotionally and mentally and to also prepare my mind to deal with them. They all haven't been recent. Some have been ongoing, but I had a conversation with a certain someone recently and it really opened my eyes to something that I had thought of but never really opened my eyes to. We all go through hard things in life and if you're in a position like the one I'm in, you just feel like you have to put on a facade and say you're okay or you're fine. I cannot tell you how many times I've been asked in the past week, "How are you doing?". Yes, it's a completely normal thing to ask when you haven't seen someone in awhile but do you ever really listen to the words that are coming out of your mouth? Are they, "I'm good." or "I'm fine."? If you take a moment to think about those times when you were asked and think, no I wasn't fine, that's where I'm going with this post. It's okay to NOT be okay. So many times we think we have to be okay for ourselves, for our friends, or family but that's not really true. No, you don't want to not be okay forever but yes, it is okay to admit to yourself temporarily that you're not okay. That's apart of accepting what's going on your life and moving forward. It can move you towards seeking help. To talking to a friend or family member. Whatever it may be that will help you heal, admitting to yourself temporarily that you're not okay, is okay. And yes, I say temporarily because not being okay will never truly allow you to heal. I know that I do not want to not be okay for the rest of my life. That just sounds miserable and I wouldn't want anyone to feel the feelings of not being okay for the rest of their life either. So, take a moment and reflect on what you're truly feeling. Stop and come in-tune with your emotions and deal with them and make them better. Because if there's one thing I've learned, it's only you can make yourself better. No one else can do that for you. No material item will make you better forever. Remember, it's okay to NOT be okay, but search for the healing afterwards. Happiness is not a destination, it's a lifelong journey.

Most importantly, never forget that you matter. You're beautiful. And you're stronger than you think.