Summer has started. I'm home again. Not everything is the same as it used to be but that's perfectly okay. Not everything turns out the way we want it to all the time. This past semester has definitely been eye opening. I've learned a lot about myself. More than I ever thought I could. I was in a relationship for 2 years and to this day, the memories have not faded and there's not a day that goes by that I don't think about him. I got into a relationship not that long ago and came to realize that I wasn't happy. I was in that relationship for all the wrong reasons. I wanted someone to comfort me and take me on dates but it came to the point where I realized that at this point in my life, that is not something I need. I realized my happiness was being put on the back burner. I was putting my happiness on the back burner and trying to be happy by making others happy and don't get me wrong, I care very much for my friends and family and always and forever want them to be happy, but I realized it was time that I made myself happy. It's time to dive into a life that I'm truly happy with. A life without depression, negative thoughts, less anxiety, constant sadness and loneliness. I'm the only one that can make this change and that's why I'm determined to completely find myself this summer. It's a summer dedicated to being truly happy in this life God has given me. Yes, there will be trials, problems, and difficulties but life wouldn't be life without any of those. If you're reading this, I hope you're happy. I hope you're pursuing your dreams. I hope God is blessing you in ways that are unimaginable. I hope you're living a life that you're proud of. I hope you're not giving up on anything that makes you truly happy. I hope you're making good decisions. I hope that you love who you are and who you are becoming. If we haven't spoken in awhile, know that I miss you and your friendship. The laughter and the silliness and maybe a little weirdness thrown in there. Know that I love you and thank you for being the amazing person you are. My goal this summer is to inspire others to find their true happiness as well as fulfill my ultimate happiness. I want to go back to school saying to myself, "I did it. I'm here. I'm happy and I did it by myself and with the help of God." I also want you to do the same thing. Happiness is an extremely important word in my vocabulary and it will forever be very important to me. So, take this as you perceive it and live out your happiness. Not with a boy or a girl, but alone. Be happy alone. It's the only way you can make anyone else happy.
| happiness: a mental or emotional state of well-being defined by positive or pleasant emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy. |
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